I cannot express to you how I feel right now. I am seriously walking on air. Sarah bought a new comforter a couple days ago, one of those nice white crinkly ones. She also bought two new pillows – down alternative, very fluffy. Well, last night she gave me both the pillows. I put them behind me so I was slightly propped up. Strapped my mask on tight, put the chinstrap on tight. I woke up at 5 am, in THE EXACT SAME POSITION!! I had not moved at all, this has NEVER happened to me before. I couldn’t feel the mask or the bi-pap machine at all, I didn’t think I had it on, I was breathing in perfect unison with it. There just are no words to describe how happy I am. I understand that I should not expect this every night, but the message from the guy who I bought the hybrid mask from (I still haven’t received that by the way) resonates in my head -”Don’t give up. When it finally works, you will think you have found the fountain of youth”. That and what Sarah was told by one of her clients – “He doesn’t even know the person that he is capable of being” have carried me through this and made me press on and make this happen. I am normally someone who is prone to giving up when something doesn’t work on the first few tries, but I want this so bad. I believe its going to change my life, I do think its the missing piece. I wish I had found it 20 years ago, but at least its here now.
Now I know that I don’t care what my insurance company decides, they are not taking this away from me.
I can tell from all the search terms that have brought people to this site, there are a lot of people who are going through the same things I am. Stay with it. I know this sounds cliche but if I can do, you definitely can.
